Saturday, January 30, 2010

Black and white.

my favourite colour.

so distinct,

so different,

but able to blend so well.

almost like nothing could go wrong.

FYI.

when i am too lazy to blog,


https://twitter.com/waimengyap

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

WOAH : 0 - 18 SX ( the - i am this close to eternal happyness AND satisfaction version )

* I am either dawson / bobo / or wai meng on msn.

depending on what i ate.

One day, someone / thing added me on msn. ( sonyaduchin93@hotmail.com)

Because her pm said, " Watch me naked live "

sudah terang lagi bersuluh, nothing comes easy.

( i didn't keep my hopes up that high )

DAWSON says:
FUCK U
U R A VIRUS

sonyaduchin93@hotmail.com says:
i'm 21/f your a male right?

sonyaduchin93@hotmail.com says:
nice, I just got off work and finally got some time to relax which site did i msg you from again?


*thinking that she might be a real person after all,

DAWSON says:
sorry
but u have a virus on ur pm.
have u noticed?

sonyaduchin93@hotmail.com says:
I know a way we can chat and have a better time.. do you cam?


sonyaduchin93@hotmail.com says:
Well i don't do yahoo cam or any other cam because i have been recorded before... But i do know one site you can watch me on cam, that assures me no one records...

*assures no one record. hmmmm.
: D
though i make a good video, i believe.

DAWSON says:
HAHAHAHAH
WHAT WHAT


sonyaduchin93@hotmail.com says:
I mean... Do you want to see me on my cam?

DAWSON says:
YES BUT
I WANNA KNOW
WHAT
CAN U SHOW ME
FIRST


sonyaduchin93@hotmail.com says:
Ok go to http://twurl.nl/ovkn0q accept the invite on the page baby

DAWSON says:
WAITT
WHAT CAN I GET FROM IT


sonyaduchin93@hotmail.com says:
sweet, fill out the info ur info.. i can not wait for you to see me baby let me find something nice to wear

DAWSON says:
WHAT R U WEARING
TELLLLLLLL MEEEEEEEEEE


sonyaduchin93@hotmail.com says:
its the sites policy to ensure no minors get access to the site, so they might ask for CC to verify your age babe.

DAWSON says:
WHAT R U GONNA SHOW ME
UR B****
OR WHAT


sonyaduchin93@hotmail.com says:
What color Panties do you think i should wear? i might have you favorite color here somewhere...

DAWSON says:
RED RED
YES YES


sonyaduchin93@hotmail.com says:
Your such a good boy, i'm gonna show you what good boys deserve.. you can tell me to do anything you want me too!

*fuck, she knows what good boys deserve!
you don't.

DAWSON says:
ok
what would u do for me

sonyaduchin93@hotmail.com says:
Ok let me know when you get in so I can invite you directly to my cam.

You have just sent a nudge.

sonyaduchin93@hotmail.com says:
u have to enter a cc, atm, or debit card so they can tell your of age, thats the ony way to see me sweety


DAWSON says:
what if i don't wanna see you
i wanna feel u

sonyaduchin93@hotmail.com says:
k you in yet babe??


DAWSON says:
YES YES
I AM INSIDE
YES YES

sonyaduchin93@hotmail.com says:
k


DAWSON says:
WHERE R U GOING

You have just sent a nudge.

You may not send a nudge that often.

You have just sent a nudge.

and this is how she left me. : ( : ( : (

P/S : Incase u r wondering, no i didn't click on that link.

well, reality sucks. : ( : ( : (


I OFFICIALLY PUTUS CINTA.

AKU EMO.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Why am i always hungry.

I must go for this. * will
It is almost like a calling, really.

Siti Nurhaliza is performing. ( yes, i still do like her though she is married. i am happy if she is happy lah : S ).

and there's aizat.

and then Faizal Tahir as well !

: O

If Jaclyn Victor was there, i'd prolly be camping outside Istana Budaya with banners and stuff.

Anyway,

my mom is quite annoyed about it as the tickets aren't exactly cheap.

But i sinned already,

as i didn't go for,

Puteri Gunung Ledang The Musical,

and Siti's last concert there.

so how can i repeat my dosa?


According to the website, the front row seats are not bad.
and it is affordable - rm 120.
There are three shows - 12, 13, and 14th of February.
Yes, you got it right.
13's the eve and 14's CNY.
leaving me with only the 12th, which is the gala night.
which is more expensive - rm 153 or maybe more.

I don't get it,
even if the organizers felt that there were no Chinese interested for the show,
which might me true,

they should at least leave the option open, no?
My journey there. ( very kesian, like penjelajah man )
From HELP,
i'd take a bus to the LRT station - transfer to KTM / STAR - walk / take a taxi - Istana Budaya.
since Friday is my hungry day, ( so i makan banyak )
i wouldn't have enough money to take the taxi,
so i shall walk.
Pray for me lah ok?
Semoga my perjalanan dipermudahkan and i get good seats.
Edit : I got the tickets! In the end, my mummy bought it for me.
she was @ istana budaya @ 9.15 am,
they said that she was the first who bought the tickets!
and do u get why i was so bersemangat?
As of now, all 128 seats of rm 153 are sold out, and they just started selling it today.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Because everyone is sexy and hot.

First of all, ( hello )

I hate, in fact i don't sms.

so 4give me,

i arrange my sepuluh jari mohon sorry,

when i do not reply.

How's college?

It is fine, but,

i don't know why we have to study, study skills.

during class,

i sleep with my eyes opened.

and today, Kali wanted 2 go 2 the washroom and our teacher said no.

gosh, do u know how disappointed she was?

Happy people teach well.

like my math lecturer.

according to alison,

he just got married and that explains it all, no?

just married = happy = teach well.

Why, you ask.

Because their life is fun, night or day. ( i shall be polite, but we sama - sama tahulah k? )

Remember, when i said i was reading a book by Amir Muhammad on Yasmin Ahmad's films?

So today, i attended the autograph session @ HELP.

It was ok, other than the fact that the hall was cold.

So i asked mr. Amir,

On whether or not Yasmin, herself analyzed her films as detailed as how he did.

Or she just shot her films spontaneously, without thinking too much,

as it was just in her.

he answered but i didn't pay much attention because,

there was this really hot girl sitting behind me, and my jantung like so berdebar - debar.

MOVING ON.

Later, a girl raised her hand,

and said,

With regards of what he said, i think Yasmin wanted all of us to analyze, and question. ( or sth of that sort )

Which i totally agree.

BUT, that wasn't my persoalan.

When i read Amir's book,

I highly doubt Yasmin herself was so analytical and detailed about her films.

I feel that she just shot her films from what she believed in, and sometimes even from what she felt at that moment. like, very selamba. ( u have to read the book to understand : D )

point is, i didn't like it when the girl said that.

fuck man, i hate to be challenged that way.

( or maybe she was true-and i hate to be outsmart like that ? : O )

i don't know, you be the judge. : D

My Korean friends call me bodo / gila.

thinking that it is cute.

i forgive them.

Whoever that adds me on facebook / msn,

diwajibkan,

talk to me or introduce yourself lah k.

online, i am very lifeless wan.

i do stuff that you don't want to know. :O : D : D : D : D

so if you can make it more interesting, why not?

The BIGGEST joke of the tahun.

someone told me that some people think i am arrogant.

firstly, ( miss chandra, i am using transition signals, yay ).

if it means i don't smile when i walk, ( someone told me that )

sad to say ok,

i am not gila.

imagine me smiling : ) around the corridor of HELP,

i'd be like doraemon / bobo. ( sorry, i don't get this either. )

Religion.

Have i mentioned that i went for CF last week?

And it was great.

I like the songs, i really do.

Shoot me,

but i feel the same when i go to a temple,

or a church.

as good.

I believe that all religions are the same,

but there are just different ways of reaching God.

because there are different parts, people, language, and culture around the world.

logically, as well,

we would have different religions.

so, i regard all of them as the same.

Therefore,

if any teaching asks me to believe that theirs is the only true one, disregarding the others,

saying that only people from that particular religion would go 2 heaven, and the rest to hell,

sorry to say,

i shall remain in the middle.

why?

i very lame wan.

because I have this fantasy about being in heaven,

with hot people who are Muslims, Buddhists, Indians, and the list goes on.

Like damn fun ok.

we can eat like specially made in heaven satay and rendang 2gether, and halal chinese food,
and papadom, all in one meal.

after makan, very full right?

we go say hi and thank God ( must respect lah ok ),

and later go play congkak.

and after that, we play black jack / poker.

( i get that race and religion are different, but for the sake of getting my message across, i shall follow majority )

P / s : Forgive me, when i use the word sexy / hot / hotness, just too many times in college or even here.

I just believe that everyone is sexy and hot.

It is just a matter of time before you are convinced.

Some people take years, some people never.

so, we shall not waste any more time, no?


: D.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Because we are too damn desperate to be happy.

We all search for happiness all the time.

While walking in college / school,

we all look for a familiar face to talk to,

if we are extrovert, we try our best to be friendly,

if we are introvert, we all hope that someone would come and talk to us,

constantly hoping that we would appear cool, or at least decent.

hoping that whatever we say, would appear relevant to the other party.

we all look around,

praying that we would fit in,

therefore,

sticking with that same few friends,

to ensure security that we would never be left out and be an outcast.

coz at one point in our life,

we have felt that way.

and would do basically anything to avoid it.

that is why, in college,

we would constantly see students from the same country,

sticking 2gether like a gang,

but we can't blame them.

then we realize.

and look around, again.

and wonder why we are so different.

and as we grow and mature, we realize that it doesn't matter if we don't fit in.

it doesn't matter if we are not outstanding.

as long as we are happy.

therefore, we look and hope to fall in love.

we know ( or think ),

by falling in love,

we would be less lonely,

as we can now have someone to depend on,

emotionally,

to trust,

to hang out,

with no pressure to appear cool,

to be accepted.

and so we wait.

and wonder how much longer.

probably the people, who appear the happiest, friendliest, and most outgoing,

are the ones who are sad, and lonely.

but we all thank god.

at least we get a chance to act happy.

we get a chance to hide the struggle that we are facing, and pretend that everything is fine.

why?

because we have a responsibility.

for ourselves, and our parents.

sooner or later,

we thank god if we can put a smile on someone else's face,

rather than just being yourself,

sad and lonely,

and making others feel the negativity.

because well,

some people are just really worth us, putting a show for.

because it sucks even more,

if someone finds out.

point is,

take a moment,

each day and look around.

wonder, and question.

u would be amazed with what you can see.

just a few days ago,

someone from another country,

asked me what time it was.

his watch wasn't working.

mine looked expensive,

feeling shy, he felt the need 2 talk about,

how his watch is cheap and old.

and i told him about how mine is cheap, too.

and i bought it from a night market.

and it doesn't matter.

he nodded his head, and smiled.

anyway,

don't be fussy.

so what if we don't get what we want.

like the great yasmin ahmad said,

i thank god each day for the ability to breath, eat and drink.

stop wanting so much,

and expect less,

and probably u would be less bothered.

and don't correct me.

i know what i am saying.